Tuesday, 18 September 2007

What Is The Catalyst

During these 'in-between' days we have a lot of spare time to think about the goings on and reflect upon them.
Something struck me today, I don't know what it is that has made me want to start a family.

Almost without exception I can justify any decision I make in life, rightly or wrongly, but there is always a reason behind it.

But this has me flumuxed.

Most guys, I would imagine, have the news thrust upon them, without having had too much to do in the decision making proces, and upon reflection, I wish I were one of them. I'd love if my wife could 'surprise' me with the news, but that will never happen as I am unfortunate enough to know every minor detail of her physical state as well as she does at this stage.

Other guys, I'm guessing, decide that they've reached a certain age, or status in life and it's the logical thing to do. This guy I'm glad I'm not, nor could ever be. I can't quantify why, but personally that decision just feels somewhat empty and void of motivation.

And then there's me, regular professional, with no substantial thought ever given to the subject and I get absolutely bowled over by the power of this emotion/longing/need/urgency.
I don't want a 'baby', I want a family. I do know that my wife and I have so much to share that it would be criminal not to do so.

All in all I don't know if it's from a selfish source in me, or even the complete opposite, but it's there, and it's growing by the day, so much so that there is a great probability that by the time any child may materialise, I may very well have exploded....

3 comments:

Doodaddy said...

You really think most guys get surprised with the news, these days? I'd guess it's a smaller group than you think.

Anyway, there isn't (or doesn't have to be, anyway) anything logical about it at all. From what you write, it sounds like you're doing it for exactly the right reasons.

Dorky Dad said...

I was surprised by the news, but only because my wife kept everything from me after we'd had a couple of close calls.

I can understand your desire for a surprise, though.

Xbox4NappyRash said...

DD #1:

I'd guess it's a larger group than you think ;-)

I'm actually not slightest bit apprehensive about the decision but genuinely curious as to it's inspiration.

DD #2:
Yep, a surprise would be great, but impossible. I'm pretty sure I'll be taking a wazz on a few sticks myself before too long more...