Some things in life are inevitable, like Morgan Freeman playing Mandela, or Tiger Woods getting herpes, and with 400 entries behind me, this is one of them.
It’s time to put this blog to bed.
There is a little girl who joyfully consumes more time and energy than I need to maintain this place to the standard it deserves; I believe it’s been a good blog and to continue it half heartedly would be doing it a disservice. I’m not entirely at ease with leaving it behind, but watching it go to ruin with poorer and more infrequent entries would be far worse.
It has evolved naturally, along with the story it’s been telling, from one of just another idiot trying to knock up his wife, to one of grim and dark places with sadness, anxiety and uncertainty lurking in the shadows, and on to one of happiness that no words or silly phrases can convey.
You’ve giggled about the early days of trying to conceive, offered advice when things started to look off colour, and consoled us when they repeatedly went wrong.
You’ve read entries every month with the same trepidation with which I’ve read ET’s face at the same intervals. You’ve cursed when we’ve cursed, and you’ve celebrated with us from every farfetched outpost of this planet that you could imagine.
You chuckle when I admit we are paying funny money to a day care centre and all we get in return are germs. You nod your heads when I try, and fail, to articulate how staring perfection in the face every single day can be as equally unnerving and unsettling as it is calming and gratifying.
For all this, and the genuine friendships forged, I can only say thank you.
My biggest debt has to be to the poor woman who has had her intimates on display for everyone to see, both literally, and well, literally. We did it, let’s enjoy it.
As for writing, I can’t stop now. I’ll continue somewhere soon, in my own time, perhaps with another focus. When the touch paper gets lit again there’ll be no stopping me, and you’ll know where to find me. Until then, all ideas, or job offers, are welcome.
For those reading who are still on their own journey, I know how dark it can be, I can only hope along with you, wish you well, and tell you that someday it could all be very different for you. The breathing sounds from the baby monitor here on my desk tell me so.
So, for the last time I want you to get your arse off my couch and give me that mug so I can put it in the sink. I’ll ignore the mess you’ve left with those biscuit crumbs and we’ll walk you to the door. Just don’t expect Sanne to wave because she only does that cute stuff when no one is looking, you do get a huge smile though.
Thank you for calling, safe home.
I will miss reading, but I totally understand. Enjoy that sweet girl!
Awww Bugger, that was not what I wanted to read!
It has been fun and I am proud to call you my friend. xx
Bloody brilliant blog Martin.
Roll on the new adventure and I look forward to reading all your other stuff!
Could you just post a photo every few months of that little darling of yours?
I know I don't come around very often, but I'm disappointed that even then, I've overstayed my welcome! Still, I couldn't be happier for you and your family, and I look forward to your return someday, somehow.
I wondered if this was coming.
We all outgrow ourselves if we're doing it right. You are a beautiful writer and I have no doubt you'll keep at it. It's what you do.
Good on ya. xo
Wow, I'm really going to miss you. Hope you'll still stop by from time to time, and let me know where you land my friend. Enjoy that wee lass of yours.
Ahh, X-box, I'm a bit sad, lovey!
Enjoy your time with Sanne while she's tiny. I looked back at baby photos earlier this week, and throbbed with how far away Harry's babyhood seemed, and how I wished I could reach through the screen to cradle his 4 month old self. It's time I'll not have again with him, and I consequently wouldn't wish you to waste a second of your hard-won time on entertaining me!
But... DO keep writing. Please? You're such a fabulous writer, and I'd miss you if you never light that touch paper...
A-Ha! You're writing that book and your agent has told you to keep schtum (sp??)
I s'pose I'll just have to harrass you via twitter then.
Do we get a refund?
So long, Farewell, Auf Wiedersehen ... (is this where I break into song?)
You've been a fantastic read and even when I haven't commented I don't think I have missed a post since I started reading over two years ago.
I have no doubt I'll read your writing again somewhere. And I look forward to it.
Well, that little girl is just about the living end. Well done, and best of luck.
I'll miss you, thank you for sharing your story and your life, it has been an honour and a pleasure.
My favourite post is the one of you in your kitchen just before Sanne was born, boiling the kettle, listening to ET trying to get comfortable in the bed upstairs and you imagining people overseas awaiting Sanne's birth.
You've written some fantastic posts over the years - thank you. We will miss you!
Thank you for sharing your journey, and your beautiful daughter with us. You've been an inspiration. Look forward to reading whatever you might write in the future!
What everyone else said, really. Keep writing, somewhere or other. Best wishes. All that. Damn, going all sentimental now. *sniff*
I'll miss your humour and wit, but what a wonderful, wonderful reason to call it quits!
I ain't worried. You'll have other stories to tell. You're just done with this one. ;-)
See ya around.
Thanks for a wonderful read, good luck with the new ventures. I'll miss the next stage of the journey but maybe it's better to picture you three riding off into the sunset as the credits roll. Enjoy.
Just sending love and my own thanks; the circusmtances are always different, but pain is pain, and you have helped me get through some of my own.
Sanne is gorgeous. Well done.
Looking forward to the next thing, Martin. There's already been such a happy ending, couldn't ask for better :)
Wish u and your family all the luck in the world... Good luck on the next one!. :-) Remember never say never..
Thanks for sharing your story. You're a wonderful writer, and I will miss reading your posts. Enjoy the time with your family.
You hear the sound of breathing on your baby monitor? Ours must be defective. I've only ever heard crying ;-) Okay. Kidding. I hear baby grumbling and grousing every once in a while.
Martin it's been such a pleasure to be along for this painful yet wonderful journey you and ET have been on. Please journal your life with your daughter somewhere. She'll look back at it one day and laugh at her silly dad.
Thanks for sharing your gift of storytelling! -Monica (and family)
Be sure and tell us where you move to. .... and Sanne would have to be one of the most beautiful baby girls I have ever seen. That's not flattery. That's fact. She's gorgeous.
Hope you keep writing in another blog format, have enjoyed reading your updates xxx
It's been a rollercoaster of a journey. Now as long as you keep answering my emails, I won't sulk too badly.
You will most certainly be missed. Please do let me know if and when you start writing elsewhere.
Take Care, Martin.
Aww....I'm going to definitely miss the pics of your gorgeous girl. I hope you'll let us know when you start another blog so we can all come follow and hound you!
It has been wonderful following your journey, it had lots of downs but in the end you knew just how to look for the positive making me laugh my ass off. Of course now I'm just extremely happy that you have your beautiful little girl taking up your time. Wishing you the best of luck, you are going to be missed!
Good bye, and thank you.
Now that you will have more time on your hands, can you cut some of Sanne's hair and send it to me for Harry! Also a spare tooth if you have it.
Oh, Daddy X- I will miss you so. I'll drop you a line now and then and I hope you'll answer.
Love from Florida where candles were burned...Mary
Gah!!! I understand but.....I'll miss your writing very, very much.
Thank you for sharing your family and your writing with us. I've enjoyed every word (even the ones that made me cry, dammit).
best of luck in the future. keep keepin' it real.
Thank you so much for sharing your life and your incredible words with us all. I hope you change your mind but understand why you probably won't. Best wishes to you and your little family in all your future exploits (and please, dear man, don't stop writing!).
It's been a pleasure to read each post, including this one. Maybe one day we'll meet in real life and talk about the old days. While our kids make out. Keep in touch!
See you down the trail, Martin. At the next wrong turn. :)
I fully understand your reasons, it is always better to end on a high note. I look forward to reading when you decide to begin again. In the meantime enjoy the wonder of Sanne and try not to blink to often or you will suddenly wonder where the young adult came from!
Good luck with life in general, and with your loving family.
Good Luck. I'll miss reading here.
I will miss reading your blog, but I can understand. You have such a cute girl, and enjoy this time with her!
I will miss reading your blog, but I can understand. You have such a cute girl, and enjoy this time with her!
o ooooo..i will definitely miss your blog :(
Thank god, it's about time this pile of crud shut down :)
You've built up a wonderful little book to give your daughter here Martin.
I waver on what I want to do with my blog on a daily basis. However I know this has been coming for a while. I hope to see you pop up somewhere else, but if not - see you next summer on the coast of Wales?
@Sarah- Will do, thanks.
@Gina- Awww. Ah well.
@Rebecca- You never know!
@Maggie, dammit- Nice way of putting it, thanks.
@Jenni- I'm not going into orbit ;-)
@hairyfarmerfamily- Will do my best.
@Irritatingly Optimistic- No, no, and er, no.
@womb for improvement- Much appreciated.
@Erin- Yes, thank you.
@Boliath- Likewise, I must say.
@TheSheila- That is easily my favourite too http://xbox4nappyrash.blogspot.com/2010/02/soon.html
@Katie J- thank you.
@Sadia- As good as any.
@Kate- Yes, that's how I see it.
@AnnB- You never know, Í won't rule anything out.
@Kori- Thank you.
@Jo- Exactly, I couldn't have asked for anything better.
@Kalei's Best Friend- :-) Yes, indeed.
@DebK- Thank you.
@Susanica- Thank you, it's appreciated.
@deardarl- I won't disagree :-)
@Ro- thank you.
@Veronica- It's a long time eh.
@Sarah- I will of course, thank you.
@Tigger- Will do, thanks.
@Shanny- Thank you.
@Backpacking Dad- The ladiez are all yours now... ;-P
@Sinead- hahah, poor fella.
@Ms. Moon- Of course I will, and thanks, mad hippy.
@Bonnie B.- That's all part of the fun I suppose :-)
@showmeyourcookies- Nah, no tracking back. Thanks.
@People in the Sun- You'll have to put some manners on him first! Thanks sir.
@Idaho Dad- Just over the next crag :-)
@Grannymar- Yeah, better than letting it slip into nothing, thank you.
@Irrational Dad - Cheers sir.
@American in Bath - Thank you.
@mybumpyjourney - Aw, thanks very much.
@Chhandita - I will too.
@Dan - Words hurt Daniel, words hurt!
Martin, You will be missed. I have enjoyed your writing and being a "part" of your journey. Enjoy, and godspeed.
I'll miss your posts, but please know that I couldn't be happier for the reason for your departure.
Well, somethings never change. As usual I am late to this post, beaten by about 50 other commenters and with nothing original to say.
I'll miss this blog but I'm glad you are in a place where you no longer need it.
Take care, my love to you and your girls and hopefully I'll run into you elsewhere on the tinterweb.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! Don't do it Xbox. You will need an outlet, don't totally shutter the windows just take a nice holiday.
See you around the internet! That beautiful girl will be keeping you quite busy, but will also inspire many worthwhile stories. So keep a journal or something, please.
(Safe home always reminds me of my grandfather - he used to say that whenever we'd leave. I guess it's written somewhere in the Irish DNA)
So long, farewell, Auf wiedersehen, good night,
I hate to go and leave this pretty sight.
So long, farewell, Auf wiedersehen, adieu,
Adieu, adieu, to yieu (Martin) and yieu (ET) and yieu (Mango).
Drat - I'm really going to miss reading. Enjoy that girl of yours.
Long time lurker and occasional commenter.
Really sad to hear that you're stopping blogging but happy for you that things are going well with little one.
Will really miss your writings.
I got teary-eyed reading that! I am just so glad you are a FB friend!! I know it sounds trite and cliche but I can't imagine not seeing how Sanne grows and having you totally out of my life!
So, please don't kill the FB page too!
I often think of your "one liners" from your blog, my most favorite (or the one that came to my mind first) was when you were talking about Sanne being overdue and you two had gone in for an ultrasound and couldn't find her feet on the screen and concluded that the baby had eaten them for nourishment.
I laughed as I typed it. In fact, when something in life reminds me of your blog, I'll think: "That reminds me when Martin said...."
I will miss your writing terribly and when you get published or start another project that you graciously allow us to be a part of, I'll be the first one waiting to read it.
Blah, blah, blah...I always leave the longest comments and people are going to kill me but I love you, ET and Sanne a lot!
Enjoy life as a Dad....you won the prize....
I'm going to miss this blog, but I understand that you need to do this. Sanne and ET deserve your full attention so much more than we do.
Awww, such a shame, will miss your witty writing, but i know that you are doing it for all the right reasons. God Bless, Martin, and thank you again for sharing yoSanne is absolutely gorgeous and she will need / want all her daddys attention. Big hugs to you guys from YOLANDE, SOUTH AFRICA.
Sad. I am. But I smile too because it seems so healthy. You've walked a road and it's turned into another one. Time to let it rest. I'll miss reading you, I will. Keep in touch from time to time and I'll look forward to your next incarnation. Drop me a line when it comes out so I don't miss it.
thank you for sharing your life and your story. I will miss the updates and photos but am happy you have been given the ultimate gift of life after walking a long road. Keep on writing. Take care
Alright, now I'm all flustered. I'm not good with goodbyes.
I know you've got a ton of people to think about but I really hope that when you start up elsewhere you remember me and tell me where you're writing so i can enjoy it once again. I pretty much have it proved that you can write about anything and I will enjoy it. I started reading your blog a long time before I was actually trying to conceive and ate up every bit of it, as well as the other blogs you've written on. And now that I'm struggling through this myself, I think about your experience a lot.
All I can say at this point is congratulations for having one of the best blogs out there from start to finish.
Thank you for allowing us to be apart of your life and journey for all of this! I wouldn't have missed it for the world! You have touched all of us with your witty writing and the emotions you choose to share with all of us. I will miss you for sure!! Good Luck and God Bless you and your beautiful family.
p.s. You're on FB? Which Martin Fitzgerald (of 219) are you????
This occasional lurker wishes you well on your journey. Stay funny. It's the only way to parent.
Thank you so much for sharing your journey with us... you have brightened the dark days of others more than you know... Wishing your sweet, little family all the best from here in the midwest US of A.
i only found your blog recently and having read every word you wrote, i laughed and cried and laughed and cried, with happiness at the end. so thrilled first and foremost for you and et for the blessing of your beautiful daughter. enjoy every minute of her which i am sure you will, you are a fantastic writer, you obviously touched a lot of people. your daughter will be proud of you and your wife when she is old enought to understand..........
Haven't been here in a while, just decided to check up on it all today and I see you've just hung up your boots/fingers/keyboard.
I can't comment on the last few months, but congratulations on managing to consistently mine an exceptional amount of blog material from a heavily covered subject.
Was something I never thought I'd be at all interested about beforehand, to be honest.
Best of luck with your family and all your future endeavours!
...is "future endeavours" overly formal?
Sad to see you go but you and ET need to go enjoy that beautiful baby in peace. It was a privilege to hear you story...laugh and cry along with you. Congratulations and Good Luck!
Bye and all the very best to all three of you. I look forward to reading some of your writing again in some shape or form.
Ka kite ano
I've followed along your journey for well over 2 years - in fact, I know I've told you that you were the one who helped me go public about my issues on my blog.
Best of luck to you as you move away from documenting your entire life here... And please do let us know if you decide to start up anywhere else! I still stalk you on twitter!
Just a random commenter here - I found your blog from the Irish Times articles and have dropped in every so often to catch up ever since - both to see how things were going, but also because I just enjoy reading your writing!
I tell other people about your blog more than any others I read.
best of luck for you and your family :-)
You will be missed!
I've been lurking on & off while you were on the rollercoaster of TTC & I still pop in occasionally to make sure all is well in your world with your beautiful daughter. We had IUI success in 2004 & have an amazing son for which we are so grateful for. We thought we found our solution to our infertility....IUI.
On TTC #2, we went thru IUI x4 while you were, except it didnt work this time. I felt unable to post & drag down your joy when our 1st IVF & our frozen embryo cycle both failed. But then when all hope was gone, on our 2nd frozen cycle IVF, one of our embryos decided to stick & I am now 20wks PREGNANT and feeling great!
I wish all 3 of you the very best. You are so right to soak as much of Sanne in as you possibly can. I know its said a lot but the time will literally fly by. Good luck if you decide to add to your family. Hopefully you will be one of the lucky ones who pregnancy seems to "fix" whatever problem was there. If not then dont wait around, get back to the clinic & start blogging again!!
Your openness on this topic has helped many people I'm sure.I wish I had your courage to be so open. Infertility is like a silent disease some will not even tell their best friends & family. It was most refreshing to hear about it from a male perspective. Well done you!
Rest in peace, Xbox.
@suzannanana- Thank you.
@Sue- I do, thank you.
@Barbara- Of course!
@Russ- Oh relax, I'm not dead ;-)
@areyoukiddingme- No idea where I got it from!
@steph- :-) Thanks.
@Heather- Will do :-)
@Sue- They are, thank you.
@AnnD- hahahahaha ;-)
@Miss Ruby- Yes, I have. Thanks.
@River- Mind yourself :-)
@Yolande- Aw, thank you.
@WhatAboutNovember- Absolutely, thanks.
@Corkmum- I will, thank you.
@Blues- Aww, thanks, thats very kind.
@Angie [A Whole Lot of Nothing]- Seasonal Adjustment Disorder?
@Horse Chick- gotcha!
@Tash- That's 100% true!
@Dre- If that is so then I'm very happy indeed. Thanks.
@Anonymous- Aw thanks, that's lovely to hear, all the best.
@B- You were just really bored I think ;-)
Sounds formal alright, but I'll take it.
@callismama- thank you, you've been around a long time!
@merinz- Hei konei ra
@Jill- Good luck to you.
@Ciara- Thank you, I'm glad!
@meabh- Oh well done, best of luck with the next 20!
@Monty- Send me flowers. Prick.
It's been an awesome ride Xbox. Thank you for spilling your heart (and not just yr seed) and bringing such humor and humanity to a tragedy that turned happy ending.
Do let us know where to find you in the future.
But for our own selfish needs, PLEASE post a pic of the gorgeous one (or send us yr Flickr account) every month because she is honestly the most beautiful girl in the world!!
We will miss you, man!
xoxo stay in touch, my friend.
Best of luck and a safe and happy future to you and your lovely family.
hmmmm, seems you have amassed yourself a little harem of women you email...
that was the intent all along wasn't it? And that baby is the neighbours kid.
Hey, no fair, we need your jokes!
I miss teasing you ;-) You and Gordon both out of work now...
Fare thee well, Xbox.
And see you around.
(That is one CUTE girl.)
Boo hoo! I'm so sad! But, I understand.
I'll miss your blog, but yes, you're right, this isn't a blog that could continue half-heartedly.
All the best, Fatso Mango Daddo.
So sad to read this news, but it's understandable too! I think Jared has pretty much given up his blog too...even with news to share no post has been made. We are expecting baby #2 on Feb 25, 2011. I am 13 weeks and loving every minute of the morning sickness!
It's sad to see an end but knowing that your story has a real happy ending makes it okay! I'm glad you shared your struggles and was relieved to hear you and your family had won in the end. Enjoy your family...because she won't be a baby for long!
Take care, best wishes for the future; whatever it may hold!
Yours is the first blog I check whenever I find the time to read them... so I will miss you. Good luck!
Hope to find your new writing venture when it surfaces.
This blog has been a very special place, Martin, and I hope that it helped you on your journey to parenthood. I somehow suspect it has. And I know you've given hope to a lot of people, along with the hysterical laughter. Never at your expense, though, man, we were always laughing WITH you.
Now that you've got another little slightly more impish and certainly more important distraction than a blog, this turn of events makes perfect sense.
You are such a talented writer. I hope you do pick it up again when you have the chance.
All the best, my friend.
Sad to see the blog end- but great to know how it all ended, if you know what I mean. All the best for the future. Your little girl is adorable.
you'll be missed
best of luck....all of you.....
Will miss you.
Will miss reading.
I know I'm late. I am to every party.
Like Kim, I am very fond of you and happy to call you my friend.
Happy days. xx
What a ride it's been. Thanks for letting us come along.
Hope to see you around, have enjoyed your writing far too much to go wholly without. ;)
This is my first time to visit your blog and I actually like it. I have a knack in searching for blogs related to Tummy Tankz.
I'm so behind I might never catch up...and now THIS?
You best be sharing pics of that little princess with me somewhere, someway, somehow.
Much love to you and your girls - xoox
I'll miss the blog! But so glad that you don't have so much time for it anymore - it couldn't happen to a nicer bloke (and I don't even know you).
I am having withdrawl symptoms! Could you perhaps put in an update every three months or so?? Please??
@geeks in rome - Cheers, thank you.
@Hilary (Maya Papaya) - All the best.
@Geri Atric - thank you
@snarky biatch - bite me
@DrSpouse - ah well
@Anonymous - heh
@Mwa - she is that
@Momo Fali - :-)
@Iota - That's exactly it, thanks.
@Momma - Oh that's great news, best of luck for the remaining time.
@Louise - Ah thanks.
@Steve - Me too!
@Karen MEG - I hope so too, thank you.
@misssy m - Yes, I get you.
@iamstacey - awww
@Manuel - Cheers sir.
@tiff(threeringcircus) - Likewise.
@Amy - Absolutely!
@expatswede - We shall have to see!
@Super Mom | Maternity Belly Bands - ...
@darcie - And breathe...
@Jilly - Awww thanks.
@merinz - Hehehe, you never know.
So sad to see you go, but we completely understand. Keep in touch if you can and look us up if you ever visit Seattle!
i started again
Best of luck for the future, enjoy every moment of your beautiful Sanne. I found you when I was in my own desperate state, it was blogs such as this that pushed me to keep trying. He is now 19 mths and a header ta boot!! he has me knackerd, wrecked and it's all so glorious :)
All the best to you and your family, I have loved reading right from the beginning. And finally I can say that after years I am pregnant! Thanks for it all.
And I only just came back. Sorry to miss you, I'll have to read all the ones I missed... and congratulations!
@Mr & Mrs LIAYF - Thank you. All the best.
@Sniffle - Good!
@Deno - I remember it well, mind yourselves.
@Anonymous - I'm trying to figure out who you are, but I can't. All the best of luck in the coming months and further.
@Stay at home dad - A blast from the past, thanks, and best of luck.
I decided to stop by and see how you, your wife and your little girl were doing and I am sad, but happy.. so happy your dreams came true..
All the best to you ..
Best of luck!
Wow! I haven't stalked you since January, so don't know if you'll get this... HUGE congratulations, she is absolutely beautiful!
Couple of months you said. You MUST have thought of something new to blog about by now.
Maybe you should get some chickens and ducks or go wandering around finding boxes????
well done, sir!
cute litle baby
I'm Ann D's friend and check you blog periodically. I hadn't seen your exit until today though. Best wishes and enjoy that beautiful little girl of yours!
I too will miss reading your blog, but totally understand! Well said. Thanks for letting us journey with you! Your daughter is gorgeous! All the best, Karyne
I can understand your reasons, a lovely kid=)
I hope you do return, but until then enjoy your doll!
I've only started reading your blog recently but, I'm sorry your stopping. I hope you pick it up again some day.
I think I knew this was coming, and I checked out for a while, thinking if I closed my eyes tightly enough, I could pretend it wasn't over.
I wish you much luck, my dear. You and those beautiful girls of yours. I've always been so delighted in your happy ending, and I continue to wish nothing but the happiest of beginnings for all three of you. Or are you going to make that four? :)
Just wishing all of you a very merry Christmas. I am sure this year will be extra special.
Just realised... I'm late! Sorry!
Belated birthday wishes to dearest little Sanne on her 1st birthday!
I hope you all enjoyed a lovely celebration.
My 'baby' has just turned 21 and it still seems like only yesterday that we welcomed her to the world.
Many happy days ahead to you all.
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