At the risk of going off into a huge moan I'm going to keep this brief(ish).
Here is where we stand.
Last week, as you may imagine, lead to much wailing, pulling of hair and gnashing of teeth, I wager that that particular Jehovah's Witness won't be too quick to invite himself around again, but anyway, I digress.
Last week I got, ...how can I phrase this eloquently enough to grace these pixels...er yes, that's it, I got mightily pissed off. Call it worry, frustration, lashing out, desperation, anger or simply being a bit of a prick, I don't know but that's the way it was.
I think for the first time ET got a glimpse of just how important this all is to me, not just to her, or us as a couple, but to me personally. Now I know all you Dr. Philophiles are gasping in horror at what must have been an abhorrent breakdown in communications but you can all just go take a nice long walk off a short plank, I'm Irish, raised Catholic, and a man, that's just how we do it...I don't tell anyone what's going on in my head for 52 years until some overworked vessel pops and I collapse in a stroke struck heap on the patio floor and die. Probably while still wearing flip flops and white socks, just to add insult to fatal injury.
Anyway, long story short, ET went to our doctor today in order to see what the Dutch medical profession's opinion on our situation is. Credit where it's due, the 17 year old doctor was not as dismissive as I had feared and was quite reassuring in fact.
We are a good age, in decent health, and on the face if it ET is showing no clear signs of any problems, yadda, yadda, yadda, - "Google" anyone?
So, they are happy to let her take a back seat for the moment and your's truly will become the stage 1 guinea pig. I guess it makes sense as any tests or check for me would be a lot less invasive (mortal shame and embarrassment aside of course) and so, in the 2nd half of next week I'll be paying my own visit to our prepubescent GP so he can explain to me where/when/what/how and who I need get busy with.
Aside from the fact I'm pretty sure that a conversation on that particular subject between a man of my age and a 'man' of his age would have me incarcerated in 46 US states (I SOOOO want to add 'and elected in the other 4', but I won't, as it's childish).
So there you have it, only days after posting a tongue in cheek entry about having to 'knock one out' for the sake of science, it looks like I will be handing out free samples after all, sooner rather than later.
If anything I get this feeling we are moving further and further away from what we want, but in some perverted way, it's a relief, to have a direction, even if it does look like our life directing TomTom has lost touch with the satellites, but hey, I wouldn't expect any different at this stage.
Over and out.
Totally separate subject matter now
Please don't forget to give Dan @ All that comes with it a quick read eh?
Go on, you'll be happy you did.